it's Thanksgiving YO.

And on Thanksgiving a little THANKS GIVING is in order, right?

So today, I am going to give you a little glimpse into what I am thankful for...are you excited?

I am so very very thankful to my therapist.

Oh that sounds like a joke, but it is not. I am thankful to her for suggesting I attend Al Anon.

I am thankful that I had enough strength to go.

Fortunatly, I had had enough to go attend the meeting.

I am thankful for the group of people that came every week and shook their heads in acknowledgement when I sobbed about my situation. I am SO very thankful for those heads shaking, so very very thankful, because in just one head shake, I felt HEARD. I felt understood. In my world, those were two things that eluded me. I also didn't feel alone. I didn't feel crazy. I felt validated. Again, something that I am so very thankful for.

I have lived a life around alcoholics, I have grown up as a codependent. Often everyone's feelings and needs came before mine. I still struggle with this, but I can acknowledge when I am doing it now, and I can take a step back and reevaluate my motives.

All of this is THANKS to Al Anon...er, but of course, in thanking Al Anon, I also have to thank myself. For the courage, for the inner strength, for the rational (and irrational)thinking that took me to that first meeting, for all of those reasons that I continue to go.

I am thankful to a program that has given me hope when hope seemed so foreign for my life.

I am no where NEAR through the program as others, but I have gone at my own pace, not comparing me to where everyone else is and not feeling badly for WHERE I am. The program is not going anywhere, and I know I can keep working at it.

I know I have come a long way, I can still go a long way further. For that, I am thankful.

P.S. I am also thankful for all the typical things in my life too, family, friends, my health, etc.