Negative Nelly *neigh*

I am just really swimming in my own negativity lately. Example:

I started reading a new blog, well her blog isn't new, but it is new to me.

400 Miles Away she has posted a couple times about the lovely weather (she lives somewhere around me), like yesterday and today we have been having a "warm up" and she posted about it feeling almost tropical compared to what we have been experiencing (massive amounts of snow and friggin school cancelling frigid temps). My response was (and I know this is just despicable) "yeah...and all this damn warm-up is causing flash flooding" (paraphrased, cause I said it so I can paraphrase myself).

I mean seriously? Could I be more Debbie Downer (let's have more Debbie does Dallas or somethin happier)?

She is right. It is 28 degrees out right now and it does feel damn nice to go out to smoke and not lose a hand/finger/nose in the process. So KUDOS Mother Nature, thanks for the warm up and sunshine today.

This, though, provokes another negative thought.

So what it is "balmy" right now, by this weekend we are getting the freeze back on.

SERIOUSLY. I need a big fat dose of Happy Juice or something. Anyone? Anyone have some happy juice I can down.

Funny I just said DOWN happy juice.

Another negative party I am hosting is this damn choice I made joining the cult that is Weight Watchers.

(I don't believe it is a cult, I rather like WW and it has been the only thing that truly has worked for me on the losing weight front)

I had this feeling when I first joined Weight Watchers. I was just overly pissed about the change I was forced (needed, whatever) to make in my eating habits. So when I get pissed about change I rebel.

I have fallen into that pattern lately. I see some ice cream, I get pissed because I WANT it and SHOULDN'T have it...so I eat it. Grumbling about this is my life dammit, I'll eat what I want to.

So what do you get when you rebel at Weight Watchers? OH YEAH BABY, there are repercussions.

You get a big fat whopping (now I want Burger King) THREE POUNDS. Crap.

I mean, I knew it. I knew I was rebelling and eating poorly...and I KNEW it was going to show up on the scale. I just couldn't stop myself.

I hate putting a lot of effort into things. I want to SEEM like I am putting in the effort, get the RESULTS of putting in the effort, but I don't ACTUALLY WANT to put in the effort. Make sense?

All these negative thoughts, I am calling myself out on them right now, because they are draining my energy lately.

So here is what I can do with my negative thoughts:

I can change them, spin them, not fool myself into believing the positive, but ACTUALLY know the positive to be true.

Weather:
It is warming up, the sun IS shining. As much as I LOVE the snow, it does go away giving me the beautiful season of SPRING. Spring, new starts, new beginnings, beautiful flowers peaking their heads up from the newly defrosted grown. I love that.

Weight Watchers:
It was MY CHOICE, MINE only. That ALONE is worth celebrating. It has been one of the BEST choices I made FOR MYSELF, with myself...and guess what, I have been successful. I have lost 30 plus pounds. I lost that weight in 7 months of joining. Here I am a YEAR after starting the process...still 30 lbs lighter. Healthier, stronger, etc.

It works, it worked and it will be worked again....and forever.


"Whether you believe you can do a thing or not, you are right." -Henry Ford

and another one I like from Henry Ford

"You can do anything if you have enthusiasm. Enthusiasm is the yeast that makes your hopes rise to the stars. With it, there is accomplishment. Without it there are only alibis."